I'm a human being ,
I do feel jealous....
I tend to like people for
their qualities which i do not have.
However, I often curse them for such qualities too.

It doesn't matter anymore now,
ALL OF IT.
I'm letting go,
well, at least im learning to.
Sometimes, I'm not up to it
or fate made it clear that
i wont get what i want.

Its ok.
Allah is with me.