Hey peepos,
Surprised? Shocked till you're numb and speechless,
or do you think you almost died of heart seizure?

Yes, I'm just updating the blog.
Not even sure if there actually is someone
who reads this blog which is almost falling in its grave.

Sometimes I wonder,
am I really so bad that he has to
keep a distance away from me?
He doesn't even wait for me like he usually does.
His conversations also seem insincere.
I am confused... so confused that I could only
space out everytime I think about this.
I am not saying that he totally change and become
cold towards me.
It is odd because at times, he would respond to me
in a warm manner besides than the frequent, short and cold
replies.
It is very awkward how we used to be so close and
now we seemed to be very far away from each other.
Well, he is easily surrounded by friends unlike me,
who dont really have much friends at school.
I'm not surprised if he suddenly don't talk
or even acknowledge me at all...

Besides than that,

I feel depressed nowadays.
I can barely think and get hold of the current situation.
I just realised that there is a side of me that nobody
understands including myself.
A lot of things have been happening lately.
Everything is just whirring around my head.
Somehow I feel like I am the only one in this world,
and there is no other human to turn to.
There are quite a number of issues that keep
bothering me...
At times, I feel like I'm an abnormal person;
someone who can't even do basic things that normal,
or even a retarded person can do.

Oh great, this ranting makes me more gloomy.
I really hope I wont screw up my upcoming tests
and projects. Any kind souls out there who would
like to give me a piece of advice?

Guess not.

Let me just wallow and wander in
Le sorro de depresso land alone.