Assalamualaikum.

Lately, Ive been acting rashly and emotionally.
Its a contrast to my actual self.
Usually, I would like to act according to whats right
although it hurts and saddens me.
I would not take any risks to ignore my religion.
What about now?
I would just act to my hearts' will.
I have been very selfish lately.
Its a big struggle to keep up with myself.

I still follow my religion
but its not as close to how I used to be.
I feel unstable and insecure right now.
I even lost my motivations for studies...
The stress of my increasing work load...
My incapability to complete tasks...
The lack of support from my family...
The lesser time I spend with my friends...
My dropping grades...
The fact that I havent even touch my books for revision...
The fact that I'm taking O' Levels this year...
and many more...
I feel like a sore loser.
Anyways, enough ranting.
I'm sure as soon as I set myself right,
everything will be just fine and how it should be.
Insya Allah.

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