Things are going in the wrong direction

Yea... I can't seem to figure things out lately.
Firstly, I screw up my English paper.
And I really mean SCREWED UP!
When permission was given to start the paper,
my mind suddenly went blank.
Maybe I've been thinking too much about things
that upset me...
Everybody started writing with intent concentration
but I was staring at the paper for like
10 to 15 minutes?!?! Waddeheck is dat?
I only got around 40 mins for my composition.
Thankfully, I finished it right on the dot...
wait, should I be thankful for that?
I seriously don't know.
Whatever man...

Next, I've been 'breathing dirty air' recently.
Why can't people be straightforward and clear the air?
I dislike people who hide things from me really,
they are just wasting my time.
I would rather be hurt than to hear lies.
All because of this, things got tangled up
and getting more complicated than ever...
And you should seriously stop pushing and
taking things too far.
Yes, I know you are concern but it is as if
there's no tomorrow and you are so persistent about it.
I don't think things are what you thought they are.
It's just your anger and vengeance that make
you think that way.
Your theory doesn't make any sense at all.
Btw, you only know your story and
you don't want to hear their story.
So what's the point?
Your attitude freaks me out totally...really.
I don't know if I could trust you or
even myself anymore...

Lastly, there's a control freak in my life.
So, don't expect me to be so blunt and do
things the way I want it to be.
You dont have to try to understand my situation
but I am happy enough if you believe me.
If you just give me space to breathe
and ears to listen to me,
I will be very happy.
I understand if nobody understands me.
What I've been through is incomprehensible and absurd.
You hurt me more after you said,
"I understand you,"
because obviously, YOU DON'T!!!