Excessive fun
(Warning: Emo post!)

First of all,...
I regret about what I did today.
Astaghfirulahalazim, Nauzubilah min zalik.
Insya Allah, it won't happen again, Amin.

Well, today we had NDP celebration.
Alhamdulillah, the parade went quite smoothly.
After that, we had a crazy celebration.
I was crazy enough to dance around the hall towards the end of the celebration.
I had fun...
but I think I had gone overboard, seriously.
The stress is killing me.
I danced my way to escape those thoughts.
I got carried away unconsciously.
It was a long time since I had entertainment and fun in life.
Then I realised I have gone mad.
Aku bertaubat kepadaMu, maka ampunilah daku.
Everyday the same routine,
Homework- problems -sleep few hours
I'm prepared for my breakdown soon.
When the time comes,
I'll let everything out.
I'll pour until my eyes are dry.
I'll shout till I have no more voice.
I'll breathe until my lungs are tired.
It just pisses me off,
each time I see people take things for granted,
each time I see people who does not know how to appreciate.
GET A LIFE.
Most people prefer popularity then what is right.
You have to play along those stupid games to save yourself
from the power of popularity.
That's life...
Until Judgement Day arrives,
dont expect any justice and equality.
dont expect majority is right
in fact, in this context of the dying world,
it's more to minority is always right.

Ok, I'm emoing a lot.
Like duh, I gave you a warning, didn't I?


I was stress for many days already...
I only had less than 4 hours of sleep for weeks already.
My spirit is very low,
My emotions are wild,
My conscients are fading away.
I got angry easily,
I feel jealous easily,
I feel depressed easily.
Ya Allah,
I SERIOUSLY NEED YOUR GUIDANCE.
HELP ME.
I'm WEAK
I'm PATHETIC
I'm USELESS.
I'm not myself.
Don't leave me hanging on a thread,
Insya Allah.
Send me Your help, Amin.